Chad Final Test

16^th Dec

Chad Gong

A guy I love all the time

There’s one person is really important in my life. That guy is my dad. As many Chinese, he never show his love straightly. Because of his special way to show me love, sometimes I made misunderstand with him in my childhood memory. One day in my 8 years old, I was bored by my cram class in summer vacation, so I escaped from this class and went back to home. I turned on TV and staring to relax myself. It came as a surprise that my father went back to home at that time because of his documents. He looked at me for a while and then realized I cut my class. I still remember his angry look at that day. He slap on my face and almost shouted: “Are you trying to skip the school?” I was shocked and stare at him without words and begun to sob. After that, he shut the door heavily and left me in home. Why he is so angry, this is just my first time skip school and that’s only skip school, I thought. I had no idea I was too scared or too tired, I fell asleep on the sofa till night my mom came back. She noticed I was fever and let me go to bed. The next day morning, I saw some medicines and a note on the desk, it was written on “My son, don’t forget take medicines.” I thought that was from my mom till some weeks later, my mom told that note was written from my father. Come to think it now that was nothing wrong with a father hopes his son on the right way of life, and I am always moved when I think about this story especially the medicine and note.

Actually his not often show his serious face in front of me. He likes to accompany family in weekend and some special days. In my 17^th birthday, that was the last birthday before I came to here, he pushed away all the dinner party (fortunately that day is weekend) and celebrated my birthday. He was so happy in my birthday even happier than me. He told me so many stories about when I was a child and said “You were that little when you were a child.” hundreds times. I thought he may miss the past time we stay together. We talked about many memories very late at that day, and I felt our relationship like friends more than father and son. This time he enjoined me much like my mom, even that was terser I still can feel the love he trying to express me. After that night, I think he is not only my father but also my best friend. I do miss that night and I hope we can talk like that all the time. There is one stage I have no reason and began to worried about go abroad to study. I have been expecting for go to U.S.A since my father told me the plane for sent me go abroad to study but when it comes, I don’t think I’m ready for this. I even can’t keep silent, and my mom didn’t know what she can do for me. It continued 4 days until my father came and talk to me. He told me a lot his stories about when he left home and went to high school, actually I knew he just want to let me know this problem is universal and don’t have to worried about that. Then he given me so many advices and experiences for many common problems we would met on the way of study alone. At last, he said: “From now, you are a real man. I just can give you some advices. You can make your choice, my son. Whatever happens, just follow your heart.” I can’t see any father’s role when he talked with me, that’s more like a sincerely friend.

Now I can understand it’s really hard to be a man to say love with others. I love my father so much but I won’t bring out “I love you” these 3 words to my father. At fathers’ day this year, I sent my father a text to thank him for these years taking care of me and help me be on the right way of life. My father relayed me “thank you” 2 words. In fact, as my mom told me, he was so happy when he received my text. These days, I chat with my mom on line as usual, when she talked about my father, she remind me chat with my father because he miss me so much, and she told me he still kept that text. I couldn’t hold myself and want to cry. This is the love between 2 men, no one bring out love this world but we knew we love each other. I don’t chat with my dad many times, even if we chat I have no idea why the conversation is always so short but it can’t deny we miss each other, it just because this is our special way to convey the love.

Thank you so much, dad. I love you. I hope one day I could have guts to say these words in front of you.